Letting Go Of The Past

I've been doing some thinking. A dangerous past time of mine, yes I know. I've come to realize that there are parts of my past, I really need to let go of. I cling to parts of my past and it doesn't do my any good at all, in fact, it is so counter-productive it's not funny. So starting today, I've begun to let the aspects of my past that I've clung to for too long go . It's going to be hard, it's going to hurt, me as well as some others, but I have to get on with my life and start living in the now, instead of yesterday and what might have beens.

I have grown and changed and who I was yesterday is not who I am today. Further to the point, some of the people that knew me yesterday, never really knew me anyway. I hid behind a mask of insecurity for so long, and tried to be what others wanted me to be, rather than being myself. I've thrown that mask away, and I'm standing tall, proud and confident. I am more comfortable in my own skin today than I have been in a very long time, and it's time that I lived my life to reflect that, rather than allowing myself to get dragged down by a past that doesn't reflect who I am.

I know this may sound arrogant, and I'm well aware that I'm not really anything special, but the fact remains that who I was then, is not who I am now, and it's time to move on. I moved to a new city to start over, and to try and do things right, not to just fall back on old habits and patterns and be miserable again. This isn't a new me. I'm not re-inventing myself, I'm just finally taking control and living my life my way, instead of the way I think other people want me to. Today I look in the mirror and say "Good morning Stranger, nice to finally meet you" :)