Reflecting On Myself

Greetings Dear Readers,

I know for the past few months I haven't exactly been making frequent entries, and for that, I do apologize. My life has been in a bit of turmoil during that time, and I'm just now able to have the time to myself to be able to properly sit down and do a thoughtful entry, rather than just a personal update :)

What has brought upon this sudden need to be all thoughtful, philosophical and perhaps somewhat intellectual? Well, I guess I'll explain that as I go.

This past week I finished the training for my new job and "graduated" in a sense, from trainee to employee. Now the "trainee" class started at 24 students, and in the end, only 7 were able to meet the expectations and goals set down by the employer at the beginning. This, in all honesty was rather shocking. Then, after all the dust had settled and the reality of the situation really had set in, I was even more shocked.

I guess you could say that after everything I've been through in my 27 years on this planet, in this plain of existence, I don't really have the highest opinion of myself. Then after the past four weeks, I realized that I'm not some generic shmuck who isn't worth much, and isn't really all that great. I have so much more to offer and I'm capable of so much I never realized I was. Now, I'm not trying to honk my own horn, I'm not trying to be a braggart and tell the world how great I am. What I'm getting at is, I didn't appreciate the gifts that I do have. I didn't have any confidence in my own abilities and didn't think I was capable of being anything special.

In the past few years I guess I have done a lot of growing up and self discovery. As well, I have come to understand the world in general far better than I did when I was 20. To sum it all up in one word, I guess you could say I've matured. The 2 years I spend living at home actually did me more good than harm. I guess I wasn't as ready to face the world as thought when I was younger, and because of that, when I got knocked down the first time, I really got knocked down, and didn't know how to get back up and continue the fight.

But since that time, I've learn some things about the world, and about myself that have totally changed my perspective, my strategy, and my general attitude and approach to life. The scary thing is, a lot of the things I've learned, I've learned in the past few weeks at my new job. My trainer at this job has passed on some invaluable advice that I shall cherish for a long time to come. I could run off the mouth even more, and go on and on about all the things that have been passed to me, but I would just sound like a motivational speaker more than anything else.

So with all that said, I ask each of you the question. Do you know who you are? Do you know what you are truly capable of? and if so, are you making the most of your life or just letting it pass you by in a blur of apathy?