What Am I?
Well, eventhough the title of this post may indicate I am struggling with my identity, that is not the case. I actually am very comfortable in my identity, that's not my problem. It's more how others see me. If I haven't confused you yet, allow me to elaborate.
Over the years I've moved around a lot. Gone from job to job, place to place, and so on. In that time I've met many people, and made many "friends". I do my best to keep in touch with those people, but alas, some people just couldn't care less. So I've only actually kept in touch with a handful of people, and I'm very happy to have kept those people as friends. In recent months, I have been very busy and haven't had as much time to keep in touch with those people. Some seem to be very understanding of that fact, others, well not so much.
So, my question is this. Am I a jerk for not making more time to keep in touch with people, despite having a rather hectic life at the moment? Or are they the jerks for being frustrated with me for not having more time?
I can apologize until I'm blue in the face for not being online as much as I would like, for not emailing and so on. However, I can only do so much. Usually if I'm sent an email, I will reply. Just because I'm not on MSN when you are, doesn't mean I'm not around at some time. I work a very odd time of day, and that is usually when most people I know are on MSN. Anyway, I think I'm starting to ramble and that's not always a good thing, being the type of person I am. So, I leave you all asking, Am I a Jerk?
Over the years I've moved around a lot. Gone from job to job, place to place, and so on. In that time I've met many people, and made many "friends". I do my best to keep in touch with those people, but alas, some people just couldn't care less. So I've only actually kept in touch with a handful of people, and I'm very happy to have kept those people as friends. In recent months, I have been very busy and haven't had as much time to keep in touch with those people. Some seem to be very understanding of that fact, others, well not so much.
So, my question is this. Am I a jerk for not making more time to keep in touch with people, despite having a rather hectic life at the moment? Or are they the jerks for being frustrated with me for not having more time?
I can apologize until I'm blue in the face for not being online as much as I would like, for not emailing and so on. However, I can only do so much. Usually if I'm sent an email, I will reply. Just because I'm not on MSN when you are, doesn't mean I'm not around at some time. I work a very odd time of day, and that is usually when most people I know are on MSN. Anyway, I think I'm starting to ramble and that's not always a good thing, being the type of person I am. So, I leave you all asking, Am I a Jerk?
posted by spankosaur @ Monday, October 16, 2006
2 Comments:
At Wednesday, October 18, 2006 ,
Anonymous said...
dude you're about as much of a jerk as I am the next comming of jesus the almighty.
Just because you're not online as much as other people doesn't mean you don't wish them well and wonder how they are.. as they probably do you.. Letting them know you're thinking about them is good and in fact something to wonder about.. but as far as asking yourself who am I.. that's when the ideals that you have set forth is taking too much or rather taking too much to think about.. Now look at me I'm rambling.
Anyways dude.. I just hope you're doing ok.
It's Purdy..
Later.
At Thursday, October 19, 2006 ,
Anonymous said...
Who's saying you're a jerk? Who'se frustrated? What jerks for saying that! Or is this just your mind working overtime... not like that would ever happen. *lol*
You can only do so much to keep in touch with people. I use to worry about that all the time but it does take 2 parties to keep a conversation/relationship in tack so don't stress it.
As for the not being around, I'm at home when I'm sleeping - other than that, I'm out. At least, that's been the past 2 weeks. Hopefully that will settle down a bit but chances are slim.
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